I began my varsity adventure eager to make friends and be part of something exciting.
In my quest for companionship, I sometimes fell in with the wrong crowd.
I made friends who weren’t always a positive influence on my life, and walked out of relationships that compromised my worth.
Pain? Yes, I felt it.
There were moments when life at varsity felt overwhelmingly lonely. The pangs of missing home and family would often hit me hard.
Late nights studying alone, far from the familiar faces I grew up with, made me question my decisions and feel like giving up. I mean, it was really exciting at first.
Money was a constant worry. Calling home to ask for financial help was never easy and the heartbreaking response of “there’s no money” was a frequent reminder of the financial struggles my family faced.
It pained me to feel like a burden. There were times when it all seemed too much. Life felt meaningless, and the weight of responsibilities was suffocating.
I wanted to give up, throw in the towel, and escape from the pressures of varsity.
But guess what? In the midst of all this, I had a realisation. I needed to toughen up and take control of my destiny. No one else could do it for me.
I stopped being a crybaby and feeling sorry for myself and started taking responsibility for my life. I realised I owed it to myself to create a better future.
Instead of relying on others, I focused on becoming self-reliant. I invested a few dollars in learning how to trade forex.
It’s a process though, but it does pay some of my petty bills.
I began to be more discerning in my relationships and surrounded myself with people who supported my goals and dreams.
Through the moments of despair, I found a deeper sense of purpose. I realised that my journey through varsity was not just about earning a degree, but also about personal growth and the pursuit of a better life.
Ndinelao Nikodemus
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